Twenties

When I was in my twenties, it felt like I was riding wild horses, and I was hoping I didn’t go over a cliff.

Chaka Khan

Gloomy Sunday as I love~ 

Mulai kerasa ada yang salah.

Macan tidur, lumpur hisap, radioaktif. Rasanya kurang lebih begitu. 

I’m kind of sleep monster, I don’t do movement. I don’t even care what would you do at your circle. But once you hit mine, welcome to the club, dear love, i will extremely hit you back.

Is it how twenties feels like? 

Too much emotion, too much damage, too much everything 

How to be good and kind in a world that sometimes feels like it doesn’t deserve it? 
I get insanely depressed when i think of all of this. And yes, it is one hell of a struggle. 

But that’s life, right?

Viani sang Batu 

... batu kamu bakal ngebahayain orang disekitar kamu. Mulai belajar denger, mulai ngehargain usaha orang, mulai ngehargain orang-orang bodoh walau mereka beneran bodoh. Mulai belajar baikin orang walau orang itu mau ngebunuh kamu. Itu sih yang ga aku liat dari kamu. Yang aku liat kamu bakal nabrakin mobil kamu walau tau fatal akibatnya. Kalo itu defense ga papa tapi kalo itu buat rebound kamu salah besar.

Hold on. Slow down. And breathe in.

I’m so blessed and grateful, anyway. Thank you.